Life comes with all sorts of tests, at the beginning we freak out during finals or mid-terms. Then, we join the labor force which presents an interesting gamut of challenges, including some individuals’ personalities, project deadlines, market changes, job ambiguity, etc.
But today, ambiguity has a new definition, has taken me to a new level and has created the most stressful day with my little loved one.
Yesterday I offered myself to stay at home to take care of the little one who has some fever, at the beginning the plan seemed straightforward, take a couple of work calls, send few emails and then take an online training that was due today. The baby would play around with the tons of toys she has, eat “well” under current circumstances and take the traditional 1pm-ish nap. Hmmm, nothing happened as planned.
This is how today looked like, 🕗🍼👶🏼😢😢😢😢😢🕘😢👶🏼😢🕚😢😢😢😢😢🕛👶🏼🎉🎉😢😢😢🕐👟👟😢😢👣😢😢👶🏼🍪🕑😴🕒😢😢😢📱👶🏼😢😢😢🎾👶🏼😢😢😢🕟😢😢❔⬆️↗️➡️↘️⬇️↙️⬅️❔😢😢😢🍼👶🏼😢😢😢🙋🏼👶🏼😢😢😢🍼😢😢😢👶🏼😴
Oh yes, I finished all the work I planned for today and she kept 😢😢😢 and 👶🏼👶🏼👶🏼
What happened here? This is the first time she is so unpredictable, ambiguous, mood changing…somebody told me, so woman.
The only thing that kept me engaged, understanding, careful and patient was the humongous love I have for her. It is hidden somewhere, I don’t force it, it is simply there to give me the strength I need. Every time I look at her, every time she puts her head on my chest, every time she takes my hand to walk, every time she kisses me with a big mmmmuuuuuaaaa sound.
I will take care of you as long as you allow me to, love you.